Blessed Be Everyone,

My deepest apologies to all for my extended absence, distance, and lack of communication. All the amazing and painful events of last year finally reached a saturation level within me.

The time spent with my father in his final stage of life was a gift of unimaginable value. That redirection of my time, energy, and focus took an incredible toll on most other parts of my life. In addition, the extensive and extended periods of time spent with my father and younger sister brought up all of our old family hurts and pains. The strange combination of distance from the normal primary rhythms of Beloved/family and work/practice with a proximity to ingrained familial conflict brought the same message to me over and over. The same message that has been coming to me from many different corners of my life as well as reverberating through our community, the need for transparency.

My new found need for transparency across my life has demanded a re-establishment of the most primary foundations and boundaries of my agreements (contract) with my Beloved, Dianne Duenzl. My professional and personal life have been based in a very high degree of confidentiality since the beginning of our relationship. It was a consciously included part of our agreement with each other. The insulation and protection from the occasional turbulence in my work life, that confidentiality provided, was instrumental in the growth and stability of our home in the past. Now, with my slow and cautious movement into the Sacred Sexuality community over the past couple of years, I have realized how much the need for that level of confidentiality is based in shame and fear (things I can not continue to facilitate within myself) that eventually lead to distance and a break down in communication.

The past few months have been focused on strengthening our commitment to each other and our established life together, and rebuilding the support and understanding of each other's passions. We are slowly working through all the different aspects of my work and community-based friendships to establish what Dianne can balance with in the immediate future and what more exploration and boundary setting we need to do together before balancing that outwards as an offering or availability in the community. As a large part of that, Dianne has agreed to accompany me to this years Daka/Dakini Conference in Sedona. I hope you will all welcome and embrace her as you have me.

I am heading off for a short respite at the Sedona Temple/School this weekend and will have my phone turned on and will answer all calls. I will also be endeavoring to reach out over the next week to contact as many people who have sent me messages over the past number of months (that have, so far, gone unanswered) as I can. I also plan to re-initiate my monthly visits to NYC and the surrounding area starting in April. I only have a small number a loyal patrons left after all of my absence and inconsistencies over the past year. I hope to re-invigorate my practice in the Northeast from the position of the new strength and support with my Beloved.

Thank you again to all for your love and patience.


Blessed Being
Patrick M. McGee-Russell

Long Absence

It was my intention after last years conference to keep this up on a regular basis. That did not happen! With the recent events with my fathers health I intend to us this as my way of putting out up dates on my doings, so check in and see if I've been successful.
- The Sacred Fool-

Foam On The Waters

This image/model grows out of years of cleaning toilets and that final satisfactory flush when you are trying to send down that last load of foam and bubbles. The water is rushing around and down in its whirlpool spiral, yet for a while it seems as if the froth is growing, remaining relatively stable, and rotating slowly on top of the torrent below, with its thickest part in the middle seemingly suspended by nothing other than itself.
Time-Space-Consciousness is a fluid medium being flushed down the gravitational slopes manifested by singularity, which is just matter in a condensed and unified form. Un-unified matter(us and all of the "normal" matter of our universe) foams and bubbles on the "surface" of T-S-C with seemingly enough vibration/movement/friction to continue growing indefinitely.

Circular Movement

Statements on any subject always feel most balanced when they bring me back to where they began. Well, here is one for you!

..... Movement in chaotic relationship with Movement, producing friction, leading to heat, causing a melting, leading to stickiness, forming clumps, which transform friction into impact, which disintegrates the clumps, causing more Movement in chaotic relationship with Movement, producing friction, leading to heat, causing a melting, leading to stickiness, forming clumps, which transform friction into impact, which disintegrates the clumps, causing MORE .....

I have been silent for a while. Busy with other mischief. No apologies!! Thank you to the encouraging voice that helped break it. Let the fools ramble begin!!!

Blackhole Event Horizons Have Shells

One of the things that has always bothered me about the way that scientists describe the approach to an event horizon is the idea that one can approach it as one is; i.e.-in a spaceship or just in ones human body, until the event horizon itself begins to effect one. For me this completely ignores the other gradations of gravity force that must be in effect at calculatable radii. For example, the state of matter that is present in what we call a neutron star is as it is because of a particular level of gravity force(based of course on the total mass present). That state must be present, even in some transitory manner, in one of the 'layers' outside the event horizon. These mutiple layers of multiple states of matter must form some sort of continually transitioning 'skin' or 'shell'. I think of it in a similar way that I think of the skin of our bodies, yet inside-out. As the new cells formed at the basal cell level transition upwards to eventually die and be sluffed, it is my belief that incoming matter forms a 'shell' of transiting material form that moves inwards to eventually be 'sluffed' across the event horizon.

Structures in Nature

Just finished reading an article about the naturalist drawings of plankton by Ernst Haeckel and how they became the inspiration for Art Nouveau design and architecture. I wonder if the same could be true of the amazing geometrical structuring of the microtubular frameworks inside individual cells. Microtubular formations are particular to cell function and are consistent across cell membranes within the same tissue type. Can these structures be clearly seen yet? Have to look through the archives of electron micrographs to see if they are available.

A Beginning in The Middle

I have spent years learning many forms of meditation. Have found a use for all that technique. Applying the focus that meditation embodies to specific questions. Soaking up huge amounts of seemingly disapate information and then seeing what dribbles out during Dreamtime-Shamanic-Trance state. Real questions; quantum physics, formation of the universe, weather patterns, the meaning of sexual behavior in humans, etc. . This blog will be my new avenue for recording some of my visions and experiences in the Dreamtime. The title signifies the idea that any beginning can and should also be viewed as the middle or transitional point of something that already embodies that beginning.